Knowing I had to be awake this morning, I kept having this horrible sense of oversleeping feeling my thoughts while I was dreaming. It was a very unusual dream for me, one where I owned a chopper style motorcycle. Throughout the entire dream I was on a quest to find turn signals for it, but kept ending up back at the same crossroad no matter which direction I went. Strangers who acted like my friends where always trying to crowd onto the bike for a ride. Sometimes three or four people at a time.
While doing my morning exercises before leaving the bed, I noticed that the crunching sounds in my neck are still getting louder. My back still continues to hurt more than usual. I'm sure this all has something to do with my tossing and turning in bed, it seems to have increased while I try to sleep. Am I forever doomed to never get a decent rest while sleeping.
Almost immediately as I left my bedroom to come write the above, thoughts of Heather and her unborn baby Paige flooded me. I am so worried about Heather, and especially Lisa. I just wish Heather would have waited till later in life before deciding to create a family. I feel as though she has become another statistic of a child raising a child.
My daughter Lisa immediately comes into my thoughts every time I think about Heather. I seriously hope that Lisa doesn't see her sister as a role model, and decide to also become pregnant. I would like Lisa to have the opportunity to experience life before deciding to settle down. I'd like to see her have fun, chase after, and perhaps fulfill some her dreams to the best of her abilities. I'd like to see her do the things that many people I knew growing up regretted not having done, before getting trapped (for lack of a better word) in a family situation.
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