Paige Is Coming, Sooner Than I Thought

Strange as it may seem, Anne called me a few minutes ago to tell me that Heather would be going into the hospital this evening as her doctor wants to start her labor to deliver the baby early. This is because the doctor is having a medical procedure on the 10th, and doesn't think she will be available on the 16th, which is the actual due date of my daughter. Something doesn't quite sound right about all this to me, but I realize things happen. I'm sure that this isn't the only doctor who delivers babies, but Anne said something about Heather doesn't want to chance some doctor she doesn't know delivering her baby.

I remember when Heather was born. She was about 2 weeks overdue in the room with Anne and I where the doctor, about seven people from the staff (whom I'd never met before), and her uncle Kenny. I wonder if its a matter of a stranger seeing her vagina? If she doesn't know it now, isn't she in for a surprise as there will be many more people present than she will be expecting.

I enjoyed watching both of my daughters being born, and the only thing I will regret about getting a phone call to let me know my grand-baby has been born is that fact that I couldn't be there to witness it first hand.

For whatever reason Heather seems to have shut me out of her life, and I have to get every bit of information about her second hand from Anne and Lisa. I hope that she will have the desire to call me after the baby is born and let me know that she and Paige are doing well.

I remember I had a list with phone numbers of many family members on both sides that we had to call when the girls where born, I hope I'm on her list, and that the only phone call I get isn't from Anne. I would love to hear the excitement and exhaustion from my own daughters voice.

I realize that I was never there much in my daughters lives, but it wasn't because I didn't want to be, it was simply the distance that I lived from them. I hope that if things in our lives change and I have the opportunity to be in my granddaughters life, that Heather will allow me in not only to Paige's life, but back into her own.

I'm starting to cry now as I have thoughts flooding in of all the things I missed not being directly in my daughters lives, and will stop writing now.